EGawd!
Why can't I win the friggin lotto? I wish I could! it would be so sweet! but I'm not one of those people I suppose! SuperLotto is 15 mil tomorrow night, maybe I should buy a ticket!
Drove today, too much friggin work! and the thing of it is, its not fulfilling..  I mean not like creating some code.
I remember the days when I used to be a programmer, but it was soooo tedious! especially it being foxpro and all! :) no wonder boring stuff like DBA work seemed like a good turning point!
I don't believe in vocations! If I had a vocation, it would probably be painting.. but aren't vocations supposed to pay? how would I get paid painting the crap that I do ;-P
today I was so friggin busy, but I got dreaming at one point, and started wondering how many sketches I'd have to sell at eBay to support myself at the current level. It came out as a ridiculous number like 100 or so!!! yikes!!! how the fuck is an artist supposed to make a living? I mean, politics and connections is everything.. so if you're an antisocial type like me, you'll never advance even in arts.. too many burouts like you out there already buddy!
now now.. that's very self defeating and negative thinking (self correcter tells me) well lets think positive thoughts.. lets add some value.. lets fall in line, lets follow, lets comply, lets be complacent.. that is the way.. that is the way...
8:44:38 PM 
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