Monday, April 1, 2002

So tomorrow is the big day! Am I gonna go thru with this? or am I gonna chicken out? cluck..cluck..clooock! The way I see it, I have got the bug to work for myself, and it doesn't seem to go away. The question is, have I thought it through? Answers: First Cut | Second Cut | Third Cut Some of the questions: What about a "career"? am I putting myself behind in the "race" ?? Can someone who has no clue about business, and is as disorganized as myself, actually run a business? What about "settling down" ?? huh? when will you do that? people ask How will you support yourself? Where will you get the seed money? Who will sponsor or underwrite your business? Do you have a business plan? Is it going to be cash positive? What will you do in the interim.? What kind of business? Import/Export? Freelance consulting/development? What else? Pros: Freedom! Enjoy what I do Prospect of more progress than the annual 5%-10% Falls in with the strategic 25 year plan that I had Education in the states Get citizenship, to get a homebase Start a business (too bad I didn't prepare for it more) BTW, NAV just found a friggin virtual.root (codered) virus on my harddrive (couldn't be quarantined) Yikes!. Cons: I may not have the self discipline to go thru with venturing out on my own? I may fail. I will fall behind in my "career" It may be difficult to get back in the workforce at the same level that I am currently at Cons of NOT doing it: I may regret it later on in life that I never took the chance It may actually work out! I will never find out unless I try. Faint hearts never won fair maidens! :) What I'm doing right now is NOT satisfying .. computers maybe my vocation, maybe not, but the 9 to 5 is such a DRAAAAAGG!! I may not get this opportunity later on in life, ie; I still have a chance to strike out on my own, later on, with family responsibilities, it may become difficult, even impossible to get out of the rut!   11:59:05 PM    comment [] Well This is what I did for easter, I broke open 2 dozen Kinder Surprise eggs and took a pic! then I posted it to filepile. Now only if I could get this Picture tools thingy to work! :( I made a few attempts at enabling the "my Pictures" thing, but it doesn't seem to automatically pick up the code for it and display it here. It does clean up the "watched" directory, but dunno how to link to it... so I right clicked on the fancy editor here, and inserted an image that way (not from the "watched" directory, but from its original location) I really need to learn this userland stuff (if I'm going to keep using it that is)   2:39:57 PM    comment [] Okay, This is what I'm going to do: Time now: 11:30am Do the dishes               : 45 min   -> 12:45 Clean the apt               : 15 min   ->   1:00 Put away books              : 30 min  ->    1:30 Put away crap               : 120 min (this is the shit I don't really need) -> 3:30pm Take a shower               : 30 min     -> 4:00pm Smoke                       : 15 min     -> 4:15pm Eat brotha Eat!             : 90 min Help Move?                  : 120 min   -> 6:15pm NOT ANYMORE! Resign? 11:36:02 AM    comment [] I guess I've got the blogging bug for now! Am I a sufferer of ADHD? I don't know, can't keep my mind on one thing for too long! maybe  I should get some help? maybe some ritalin will help? who knows? I do want to get Tingoo up and running, but what would be the tools? where would the money come from? is it sane to leave a high paying job to chase after something that you classify as your "dream" ?? Is it just escape? escape from the drudgery of life? But what is to be done? what CAN be done? How long will it be before I don't want to blog anymore? huh? what will be next ? who cares? who needs? who wants? who listens? who empathises? who fakes? who eats? who drinks? who fucks? who cares.... should  I clean up the apt? should I help Flavia move? should I resign? should I take a shower? should I spank the monkey? should I download something? should I check the ZopeZen site again? Its a compulsive obsessive thing! I will never be able to run a good quality site on Zope? is it true? but Zope is so seductive!! The fucking thing is Sooooooooooo seductive! I'm drawn to it! more than anything else, any other package... This could be soo good, if they only made it user-friendly, and here they are making it 'developer' friendly! blah blah blah rant rant rant! what about fame and fortune? what about money for nothin' and chicks for free? why did MTV lied to me ... ??? :(   10:42:32 AM    comment []

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