I wanna see it painted..
Well, its been almost a week.. didn't feel like writing anything this week! It was a busy weekend.. and been a busy and not so busy week..
I haven't been putting any links here.. actually haven't even checked any of the blogs.. been feeling different I suppose. I wrote a huge long rant on the bus. Incoherent writing is one of my forte's I suppose.
I sometimes wonder about all this.. the world, the universe.. all a joke? some meaning behind it? what the heck is all this about? what is really happening here? can anyone tell? or , when all is said and done.. we just live our lives.. one way or another.. not knowing what they were lived for? why we lived them the way we did.. and most of all.. did we have much to do at all with how we lived them??
Heavy stuff? well sometimes I feel heavy.. heavy with a burden that I can't unload.. I felt like painting the other day.. the feeling grows.. yet I don't know what to paint. The futility of my "painting" or scribbling sometimes catches up with me. I think in my heart of hearts, I think to myself that what I do actually has some meaning.. something out of the ordinary about it.. but then again.. couldn't this just be my way of saving face in front of my own self?
This time I want to paint on a big canvas. On the bus ride to Hamilton monday I saw this decrepit building on the north side of Gardiner, and it said in huge graffiti letters.. "L V T O". I think the artist wanted to say "Love Toronto!" I thought that was neat..
Then I was thinking wouldn't it be neat if the whole side of the road.. all the buildings would become my canvas.. I would have a mechanism that would paint on all the houses.. all the factories.. all the huge warehouses.. as I would paint on a regular canvass.. I think it would be a new artform in itself.. a new way of expressing ..
Must paint soon!
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